so cruisey

really shot ain't so hot

i send a heart to all my dearies 

trying to breath through water

when i look too hard it goes away 

and when it all goes quiet i see they're right here 

i see that i am a little piece of a big big universe 

and that makes it right 

when it all goes quiet behind my eyes i see everything that made me 

flying around in invisible pieces

you've got to learn to take care of people smaller and sweeter than you are 

daddy said brave men don't run from their home 

the entire universe depends on everything fitting together just right 

and if you can fix the broken piece everything can go right back 

12.21.2012

all quotes from beasts of southern wild

happy friday x 

power off the bottom .. roller coasters off the top

wildfox swim line s/s 2013

where has all the sunshine gone 

better to burn out

new moon and new beginnings 

black box meditation 

passion as motivation 

a cross of ashes on my forehead

seeming not to have a care

it feels like winter , and that cold air induces a certain feeling in me

to the brain, i dislike cold, 

the low temperature hurts my skin, 

the coughing hurts my stomach, 

a trekk in the snow seems like a somewhat daunting journey, 

one that, taken during summer and spring, was just so free and light 

is now bundled , layered , heavy 

trudging where i once was traipsing 

but maybe all thats in the brain shall stay up there sometimes in japa silence 

and the heart shall hold a monarchy in the body 

this isn't a two party system all the time 

the heart remembers a feeling.... 

brings on the sound of wind gusts and creeking old window pains 

whistling sighs from shaky iron heaters and the nightly sound of snow trucks keeping roads clear

a craving for velvet and beaded lamps drenched in incense smoke flows through my core

looking out a window to snow covered street lamps 

toasty on the inside , deep feelings coming to the surface like a red rose in bloom

warm sanctuaries with rich colors and tapestries draped on the walls 

an energy that almost whispers all it's secrets right into your realm of knowledge 

hash to make you feel fine as wine

and by my side there you were

it's hard to tell if i miss you or that feeling 

the grace of keeping faith

photo credit to the New York Times 

Breezy Point, New York 

November 2nd 2012

sweet hope in the midst of the bitterness of life